Hey, how’s things? You still hanging in there? Still doing The Work? Still dealing with it?

As much as I try to live in the moment and recognise there is only ‘now’… The Past still has a habit of creeping up and reiroducing itself like some unwelcome guest. There was suddenly a convergence of The Past which came from a variety of angles. It was like I had wandered into some nexus-point that linked directly back to 2010. Time travel isn’t great. Hollywood has lied that time travel is exciting or fun. Personal time travel is traumatic. Why are these people suddenly re-appearing in my life after 14 years? What. Do. They. Want?

I try to tie up loose ends. I always try to make amends for anything I have done incorrectly. But you are always tied to the past as much as we like to think we have left it behind or resolved it. So, firstly I get a weird voice note from someone I haven’t spoken to in 14 years. 14 years! It was so weird and cryptic I can’t waste my life and your time explaining it. My first reaction after the intial ‘what the fuck?’ was, ‘what does this person want after 14 years of silence?’. Then the following day an ex popped up after, uh-huh, 14 years. She was reaching out with similar messages that might have meant something, but again, seemed too cryptic to genuinely engage with. Then, some idiot who used to send me death threats because I used to call him out on his fake UFO/Crop Circle pictures decides it’s time to start all over again with his nonsense. Have I time travelled to 2010 and missed the signs? Why this? Why now? Have I jumped a timeline? Probably not, but the feeling did linger.

The thing with your past is that you can never outrun it. You also have a limited time to deal with it, even if you need or want to. Even if you think you have dealt with it, that doesn’t mean it might re-introduce itself to you at an unexpected moment. All you can really do is make peace with it and move on. What has happened, has happened. You made the decisions with the information you had at the time. Today, you might make different choices and decisions. You are not the past, you are now. If you can resolve the past, fine. If you can’t, it is ok to observe it and just move on. This too shall pass, just like the past…

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The finish line is in sight! My current book project on digital marketing is coming to fruition. I have set deadlines several times, and it has got to the point that I just haven’t set a target for completion and as a result I seem to be making better progress. If you pop a long to digitalmarketingforcreatives.blog you can see what I’m up to, plus I’d love to see you there.